On a Soap Box

This is an update on our lives post.
And a little ranting. :]
Troy finally was able to finish his Private Pilot test! 60+ hours, 2 long semesters, a couple frustrating miscommunications, and a whole lot of money later...he is officially a Private Pilot! This means he can fly around (out of the clouds) without his instructor.  So, anyone who comes to Logan can get a ride. :] It has been a lot of hard work and Troy has been so patient and endured to the end! I'm so proud of him. This was the first big step in the program, and it feels good to have one of the licenses under his belt. Woo Pilot Troy!

We have had an interesting couple of weeks.
Little Dude gave us quite the scare. He managed to flip himself into the breech position. For those that don't know, breech is when the baby has his feet down and his head up by my ribs.  This is not how babies are born.  Because we have chosen not to use a hospital/doctor, this was really bad news. Launa (our midwife) won't deliver breech on a first time mom.  I was very worried, because I have been working so hard to make sure that I can have this baby according to our plan, because everything seemed to be working against us, so when this happened I was devastated.  I cried a whole lot and wanted to just give up all of the things I was doing and face the fact that I was going to have to have a C-Section. Now, I realize that this would have been the safest option for me and the baby and in no way was I going to put either one of us in harms way just to have it my way.  But this was still very upsetting. We had been learning SO MUCH about our birth experience that any other way was just not right.  I was sad that Troy wouldn't get to catch the baby, and that he wouldn't be the first person the baby felt. This was so important to me. I was sad that I wouldn't get to accomplish the hardest thing in the whole world with my best friend by my side.  It was heartbreaking news to us. But it made me think a lot about why we were doing what we were doing, and why people are so afraid for us.  We have made a decision that isn't popular, and isn't easy.  Yes it may be more painful and maybe slower, but it is the right thing for us.  It may seem weird that I'm going on about this, but I'm tired of defending what we are doing. I want to be as educated as possible about what happens when a baby is born, why certain things are done in the hospital, and what things happen to both me and the baby.  I want Troy to know as much as he can. We didn't feel like we were getting all the information we wanted from a hospital.  We just wanted more. Yes it is weird. Even I can admit to that.  Parts of it totally freak me out, but we get to choose how our baby comes into the world (to an extent, I mean he already has quite the mind of his own. :] ) Before you tell me that I'm crazy for not using drugs research Pitocin and what it does during labor. I won't be getting any of that. Before you tell me I'm nuts for choosing to not have my baby in a hospital where medical intervention is seconds away, look up the safety of home births (it's not as deadly as you may think). Before you ask about eye drops and Vitamin K, read about them. I'm not having my baby like you had yours. That doesn't mean that either of our births are any less special. Anytime a baby is born it is special, whether in a hospital, or car, or airplane, or shack, or at home. I simply choose a different path. Before you judge us and our decision, maybe try to learn something. You may still think I'm crazy, but at least now you know the facts.
I don't want to sound like a hippie freak. I'm not one. We are still the same old people with the same beliefs.  We're just doing something out of the ordinary. This is not to any one of you out there. It's mostly for me, so I feel like people know where we are coming from, and to maybe give us a little bit of a break. :] I'm just tired of defending our choice every day.

However, the baby has flipped. He is the correct position on the correct side, so hopefully (and everyone really better hope) that he stays this way! :]